This week for me has been about family, close and extended, and focusing on what’s so important about them. At the beginning of the week, my dear aunt passed away, the same day I caught a plane to be with my daughter, who had surgery the next day. And as I am writing this (yes, later than my deadline), my niece is in the hospital, in labor, about to deliver her 2nd child. My mother and I spoke today about the spiritual significance of a week like this in our lives, and especially at this time of year. There is no coincidence. Family and the holidays, for us, fit.
I miss my aunt, one of the most witty, brilliant, loving people I have ever known, and I regret that I could not be at her service and at my daughter’s side at the same time, but my heart was there and I know my cousins realize that.
My daughter’s surgery went well, so now we wrestle with the healing and recovery process, trying to keep her on schedule for meds, water, eventually food, and fighting boredom when she’s awake. Keeping phones off or quiet in between naps, preparing ice packs and food (in the blender), running for more apple juice or vitamin water, these are the chores that fill my days this week, and into next week. But I absolutely love that I can, and am so grateful for the time available to provide this service and be with her.
Christmas will be slim, if existent at all. First, there isn’t much energy or time for the preparation. Second, she most likely won’t be able to partake, and third, since I don’t yet have enough work to cover my essentials, the means to do much about gifts are out of reach this week.
But while I watch her peacefully sleeping after a particularly rough night, none of that matters. I love this girl. I love her brother, my parents, my aunts, uncles, cousins, nieces, nephews, in-laws, all those souls that make up my family, and friends who have become as dear as these people to me. And THAT’s what the holidays are really about.
And while my heart is open, I want to express appreciation for the friendship of classmates, the guidance of coaches and staff, the tools and methods given me through the Master Key Master Mind Alliance class. My 2016 is already looking marvelous! I have great hope, promise, and strength to move forward – finally understanding what changes I want in order to meet my life’s purpose and to be truly happy. I have contracts for work in place and more in negotiation. I am already working on projects that are taking me down paths toward my true desires. And I better understand how building desire, love, courage and faith can take me where I need to go, anywhere I want to go – finally.